Hi! My name is Carrie Louise Gebhardt. I am a multi-gifted artist. My pronouns are they/she and I am non-binary. I’m a bit like an octopus who needs to keep all tentacles busy with something at all times. Thanks to my neurodivergent brain, I am gifted at noticing big patterns and little details. I love to channel that in many ways, including but not limited to: painting, photography, writing, fiber arts, music, cooking and growing things. I like to say that I follow a Muse and definitely am my own cosmos. The other side of the sword is healing from the trauma I’ve experienced in my life, and living with mental illness, which continues to require a great deal of self work. I’ve had many diagnoses through the years, from depression to PTSD to schizoaffective bipolar, to bipolar 2, to borderline personality disorder. At this point, I don’t really know but I’m making peace with those parts of me, whatever you want to call them. I am a late diagnosed autistic as well.
I believe magick can be found in the most everyday of things. My experience in this life has been unusual to say the least, as I’ve always had a foot firmly planted in the seen and the other in the unseen. Part of my healing journey has been learning to trust what is my magick, and knowing, despite the mental illness I’ve lived through. And dropping into my unique frequency and all the freedom in just being who I am. Honoring all parts, living as a whole being. My art has gotten some attention over the years including photography featured in the New York Times, an award from BlogHer, several art shows, Myrtle the Ostrich recognized and boosted by author Elizabeth Gilbert, to name a few. I’ve also co-illustrated two children’s books and self published a few of my own, including my own tarot deck.
But mostly, I am here to embody my fullest weirdest self, putting one foot in front of the other each day, with a large dose of grace, and rebellion to the system that does not benefit the underdogs. I’m dreaming big and that starts with expressing myself fully.