TW: violence

I have no idea why I’m telling you this story right now. But it came up so here we go. 

The first time I connected with the weather elements consciously, I was in East Texas living on a lake. It was a volatile time with violence in the home. Looking back, I can clearly see that no one should have to live like that; not knowing if at any moment, they might not make it because of who an adult turns into when under the influence of drugs and alcohol. The sad thing is that I had no idea that it wasn’t normal for their parent to hold a gun up to them and threaten to shoot a child if the mother didn’t do what he wanted. Among other things. It would be years into adulthood before I looked back and finally processed these things and the trauma I held in my body from it. 

So one day, there were microbursts on the surface of the lake. I never acted out as a child. I went from being a plucky young child to a silent one. Obedient and compliant, walking on eggshells. But when I saw those three mini tornados spinning in the middle of the lake, there was a voice: You Are Doing That

I had already connected with something. The lake/nature/the fae found me in that place. Amidst the turmoil, my ancestors had me even then. I was maybe ten or eleven when I would be outside and drop into a trance. Of course I didn’t know what it was then. Trance has always been easy for me. It’s not a full trance, but I can travel in the astral realm while I’m doing other things. And children have an easier access to the other realms anyway. I can still do it now but I can go deeper when I sit and dedicate the time just to that.  You know how you overlook the things that come easiest to you but when you talk to others about them at some point, that’s when you realize not everyone can do them? That’s how its been for me and traveling dimensions. It’s coming out more in mainstream entertainment and I’m both relieved and astounded. I never thought I’d see it in my lifetime. I think more people are realizing that there is so much more than we realized. I’ve felt like such a freak for so long.

anyway

I had started seeing a guide. Someone who looks like Quan Yin by a waterfall. The keyword was Infinity. If I thought about the idea of it, I was immediately taken to her and she would speak with me about deep subjects concerning my journey and the nature of the multiverse. 

In 2015, I realized I had been manipulating weather for a long time. I noticed it when I shot weddings mostly. It was a running joke with my clients that we always had just enough time to get our outdoor shots. Sometimes by the skin of our necks, as a massive storm would hit as we entered the building for the reception. I just remember driving to these events and talking with the sky. Sometimes the sun would come out from behind the clouds as I drove down the highway talking to my weather friends. I just always felt like I knew them somehow. We are family. We are the same. I’m not sure how.

I have ancestors from my human lineage but I mostly have ancestors from my fae lineage. I have a lot of Scottish, Irish, English and Scandinavian which are all rich with fae myth. What do we really know? Not much.

Not long after that, I started feeling earthquakes before they happened. It took awhile to figure out what was happening. I always felt it emotionally. I’m not even sure how I figured it out. I think it was just one of those things the spirits clued me in on. I started tracking them, particularly the ones in Oklahoma from fracking, which is close by where I live. And sure enough, my emotional drops would coincide with the earthquakes. 

I’ve always been able to smell snow before it happens. I’m still very attuned to the weather but I haven’t consciously tried to manipulate it for some years. My life force is healing at the moment. But I have noticed that the weather here often reflects how I feel. And I’ve wondered if I am just a part of it now. As someone with Fae blood, it makes sense. They’ve been teaching me so much. 

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  1. juliemontinieri

    Have you read The Mists of Avalon? The protagonist is Morgan le Fey, Mistress of Magic.

    1. Carrie

      I’ve definitely heard of it! Maybe saw a movie based on it. But my short term memory is shot so I don’t remember much.

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