the darkness

the darkness

There’s almost too much to write, that I can’t even begin this blog. I know I need to, as I feel it pushing against my insides as always. But it’s just so damn heavy. I can’t carry it any longer. Whatever is going on for me personally and I...
september 22, 2017

september 22, 2017

First off, on every one of these blog posts, I’ve tried to type 2018. Hmmm. No coincidences. I guess I’m just ready for all that is coming. And if you’re like me, you’ve been feeling pulled, lost and confused. I pulled some cards today to ask...
september 20, 2017

september 20, 2017

I see my failures stretched out before me the weight of what I lack the tunnel vision. it breaks me to see it the way I’ve withheld love and demanded to be seen but not willing to see there was never an entity to place any blame there was only me the dark me the...
september 18, 2017

september 18, 2017

  I woke up to an image of my basement flooded from the recent rain and the actual words, spoken from some disconnected voice, “Your basement is flooded.” I even smelled that faint smell of standing water that I’ve often gotten a whiff of,...
daily log: september 15, 2017

daily log: september 15, 2017

Hi again. I missed yesterday so I should title this semi-daily log, yeah? Sometimes I still don’t have words and I slept a shit ton yesterday. As some of you might be noticing in yourselves also, the need to just conk out. I work from home so I just take a lot...